It's been over four years since I blew my apartment to smoking ruin and myself to a charred, bloody invalid. Four years, one month, and twenty-four days, to be precise. And to look at me, I'm now again a vigorous, energetic guy. Somebody who seems to do just fine moving furniture, walks for miles at a time, usually carries a messenger bag heavy enough to make people uncomfortable if I have to check it at a counter somewhere, and leaves most people asking me to slow down when they walk with me.
And that's great. For what it's worth.
I just picked up a seven pound package and a ten pound package at my mailbox and just the act of carrying them the twelve blocks or so to the bus stop was enough to leave my biceps spasming. Now, admittedly, I haven't slept much in the past few days and I haven't exactly eaten as well as I should but I haven't done anything all that strenuous and I do get exercise on a regular basis. What might have happened after six or seven hours of exhausting physical effort before the fire now sometimes happens after ten or fifteen minutes. And I never really know before it happens is this is one of my "good" days or one of my "bad" days.
What's my point? That when you're dealing with people who, like me, have survived serious injuries, the type that leave you in and out of hospitals for months, the kind that leave you needing to learn to use limbs again or dress yourself again or spending a year or more waiting to be able to breath normally again or eat normally again, when you're dealing with people like us, remember that even when we seem healed, even when we walk just fine and don't talk about pain anymore or otherwise seem "still sick", we're still not back to who we were before. And, crucially, you will never be able to judge again what they will find painful or difficult.
People meeting me now don't notice my scars unless I point them out. My body language has returned to what it was. I talk just fine. Unless you're really paying attention, I don't do anything visibly different from a "normal person". But I'm telling you that I work around my considerable remaining physical problems all the time every single day. And, frankly, it's five times more obstructive and tiring to tell people about what the issues are and try to get them to accommodate than it is to just deal with it myself. So don't assume that if somebody doesn't tell you that something is wrong that thereby you know that nothing is wrong.
I just went to pick up a pocket dictionary and it hurt enough to leave me tempted to give up and just look on line. This happens all the time to me now.
Just in case you still don't see my subtext here, let me bring it right out front. Courtesy of the last seven years of warfare by our citizens, we've now got hundred of thousands more Americans who are crippled. Millions by some definitions. And when you're dealing with those vets, try to remember what I wrote above.
Point one: Even if they tell you that they're okay, they're probably not "okay".
Point two: It's not for you to decide how they should cope. If they want your help, give it to them. But remember that they're adults and it's not up to you to decide for them how they're doing.
Point three: We'll be dealing with walking wounded for at least the next fifty years. "Normal" ain't normal anymore and never will be again. If you're still stupid enough to think that things like ADA requirements for buildings are foolishness then I hope that your legs break tomorrow and you have to climb fifteen flights of stairs without crutches. Every day. In the dark. While it's raining. And your ears are screwed up and you can't keep your balance.
My friend Sara refers to most people as "temporarily able-bodied" to keep the point in the foreground that today's aggressive yuppie running for the train and pushing everybody else out of the way may well be tomorrow's emergency room visitor. This applies to you, the reader.
Keep it in mind.
-Rustin